i feel like i want to torn myself apart.

i feel like i want to cut my hand.

i feel like regret for not doing anything since 'that' day.

it's just, gahhhh

you just can't. 

it's just suicidal thoughts but i don't have any courage to do that kind of thing. my mind wandering up just like that, tbh.

i want to ---- myself but, the other me won't let me. 

i don't know. 

i....

just so you guys know, this blog is for me to write everything i want.

i want to tell but, i don't want to trust people.

they will just condemn and judge you for having that kind of thoughts. not even caring, even just a little.

fed up.