final rants about my experience on going to the Leadership training on my main campus for two days, literally.

first of all, i feel glad that i don't daydream about what will happen for the two days. i said that because, i did have daydream or bayangkan apa yang akan terjadi pada event ni event tu and i was like, ohh harap semuanya okey. tak nak ada apa-apa masalah berlaku semua kan.

in this case, i was just like, go with the flow. for me, for my case, i have to do it likeㅡi mean, i have to just, go with the flow and don't worry about anything. if there's any mistakes, just be okay.

before this, i have watched one of my fav youtuber and she was giving advices to the shy girl. that's me. and she said, if something embarassing happens to you and you feel like the people will keep remembering it forever, you are wrong. people would just not remember it and totally ignore it or they just watch and later for a few years, they won't remember.

i always think that, whenever i did some mistakes, a lot of people will remember it for a long time and make fun of me. that's why, too, in high school before, i always think of that. i'm such a coward heh

but now, after the two days leadership training, i think that i must be more braver and try to keep contact with pandangan audience sebab semalam, aku present sekali dengan vai and syaheer. and, i totally make mistakes sebab kurang pandang audience. kan, kalau kita nak diorang faham, we have to make eye contact right? so, that time, i was so nervous until my stomach churned.

tapi, aku tak adalah tak pandang audience langsung. aku ada pandang abang2 src waktu tu. lepas vai tengah cakap, aku pandang audience. time tu semua lepu sebab tak lunch lagi and we were the second last to present so, urm, i'm glad there wasn't people standing up and correct the mistakes we have done. hahahahahahaha

so, tabah lah. harini last.
sebab dapat watikah and sekali dengan president list.

penat tu penat, tapi nak experience kan? Allah bagi aku ujian juga ni. supaya aku dapat jadi lebih confident pada diri dan confident depan orang lain. aku tak mau jadi bukan diri aku. so, i just, at least aku bercakap kan depan diorang? so, tak nak pikir... lantak situ. bye bye!